Yes, I still love you. Still as much. That's the reason that u wanted. The one reason.
It's because of the lies and everything that caused me to feel upset, unhappy.
Wouldn't it be better if u told me sooner? Like straight in the face that it wasn't possible, tell me to forget it?
U didn't, u just continued to not say anything.
And about him, u were like, u don't like each other and even pushed him to another girl. Seriously wtf. Do u think letting me know on my own would hurt me less deeply. No, it isn't gonna help, at all. And u came asking me what was I angry about? Freak u la seriously, u could have at least told me what is happening sooner right? What give him only one word reply, lend him shirt and things like that? Tell me all this for? Make me jealous? Make me sad? And in the end, my own problem. I don't even have the rights to be angry.
Like a bastard, but yeah, you're still on my mind, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second for so long.
It's the truth, why should I lie that I've freaking forgotten about u when I've not been able to do that?
Feeling freaking frustrated, I mean, when guys do something wrong, its the guys fault. When girls do something wrong, it's also the guys fault.
C'mon, we weren't born to always please u all, can't u all somehow sometimes be more direct?maybe even tell us everything, so we won't even have high hopes?
Now looking at the things I said to u, it's stupid, but I can't help thinking at all girl.
All those things I said... When I remember it, I freaking feel like a clown. One that entertains u like a idiot when u already have someone in mind.
And lastly, about YOU, yes, another you.
It's their problem what, did u have to extra and like caused problems between them?
Like them settle it on their own la.
I really dont wanna say mean things man.. and what u are doing is just making him upset.
I'm done here la seriously. I'm feeling damn effed up.
I still love you. The end.
Bye. Gonna play soccer tmr, forget about everything, play to my heart's content, and go home and start with revision.

Woah everyone is like so emo on twitter these few days luhh...
Well, yeah including me.
But what can I do? I could just face lonely nights alone, look up the ceiling while on my bed and do nothing.
I really wished I had understanding parents, who could communicate really well with me so I could tell them all my problems..
But I can only keep everything to myself now... I don't even have the time to do my stuffs, hmwk and other things
Just finished watching man utd's match just now, great win, the last few minutes of the game were really great. Damn scary. Hahah
Then now... Yeah about to sleep Liao uh... No one to talk to also anyway..
Just a short post.. Bye. ):

Haiz... Why should I still care so much man... It's like... I really can't describe my feelings now.
It's freaking affecting me.
I failed 5 this time round. HELLO LIMBENGKENG, 5. Yes, out of 7.
I'm feeling damn disappointed. Thi will be a wake up call for me.
It's really time to forget you, but you're in the same freaking class as me. #FML
But just what can I do? Everywhere I go, people are talking about u two. Not even considering how I feel, AT ALL.
Ya great, for now I failed physics, chemistry, amaths. Will get back ss and geog, which I failed badly too. And English damn jialat also.
Hope I get a1 for emaths since its quite easy? Then Chinese get a B. PLEASE
If not my l1r5 40+ sia. Wth
I seriously have to stop all this crap, I can't carry on with this life.
And yeah no more soccer already, I mean like not gonna play everyday.
I'll change. Maybe to 2 per week.. Then slowly no more.
But when I have free time, all I think about is what happened..
What the hell can I do to forget u, seriously..
Aiya heck care la!
But I won't fail so many for prelim already.
I'll study hard, no soccer, no distractions and anything!
Yes, I said it. I'll do it. No one can stop me.
Just have to keep on motivation myself to keep on doing better than last year.
This results for term test, treat it like it never exist, cos its only gonna drag me down.
So yeah, I've yet to break the news to my mum, I have to find a way to do it. Though she will be damn disappointed.
Okay enough of all this. Actions speak louder than words, all I have to do is to improve myself now.
Then this morning woke up late, almost late but still early by a few seconds.
Then had el, damn suey, had to stand up for nothing, again. But nvm luhh...
Then had PE. Played captain ball. I damn lousy la. But don't care. I guess it's because of all that stupid comments that pulled me down.
Then after recess was Chem, took back results damn disappointing. Don't care luhh.. Can't change a thing, all I can do is study harder, get my basics right and move on.
Had science day, did chem calculations.
Then played soccer awhile before going home. Just awhile, to relieve stress. But no more! Hahaha
Then I ran home,need to start running uh! My running like CMI again! Wtf. bathe, change, and went to cwp for dinner. It's mum birthday! Ha dinner at hot tomato cos swensens was kinda crowded and packed.
Then walked awhile and went home! Didn't buy anything though!
Okay, now gonna sleep! Having a 'early' night! Hahah goodnight stalkers who are stalking me! LOL especially kahhow.
Haha BYE! (:
No matter what happens, I'll tell myself,
LIMBENGKENG, keep moving on. There will always be someone better, just that u haven't met her. The past? Nah, I have to forget it cos it wasn't meant to be.
And about studies, just move on too. I'm not exactly that stupid. I just need that little bit more concentration. (:
Cos there's friends, true friends, who will always be there for u, be it when you are down and out, or happy.
I know it, I can feel it. One of them will always be Gabriel. He's always there man! Thanks bro! Thanks to those that always helps me along this 3 years plus too. Really.
Those haters, lol it's your problem la! Things that happen also not my fault! Chey! I don't want haters also can't sia! -,- not gonna care anymore.
Okay BYE! LOL xD

Okay... I officially have a stalker. Kahhow. Lol seriously stop coming to my blog to see my posts la! Hahah
Okay, so school as usual. My grades are falling like nobody's business. I'll buck up after April. But, need to start a little now at least!
Then I'm thinking of stopping soccer for awhile too. Hahah too much distractions huh...
Went to cousins house last Saturday for buffet! The food is still damn nice luh..
Every year also have, from Stamford. Hahaha good food. Got people serve de somemore. That's why it's good to be rich. LOL
Then slept there till 2.30am like that sia! Cos dad was talking to other company de bosses... LOL guys also like auntie like that.. Can talk a lot. Hahah
Then went home and continue sleeping.. Tired uh!
Today was boring luhh, played basketball with junxiang and his friends after coming back from subway with Lionel and Daniel Yong. Like weird to be eating with them uh. But don't care.
Then some random auntie came to ask me how to write qu Xiao in pinyin. Lols
Then just helped lo hahaha
I feel that my basketball shooting improved Liao leh! Haha quite accurate and can shoot quite well too! The pattern also there! XP
No one can be the best in something, u might just be overtaken by someone who works extremely harder.
That's what I learnt today. O.o
So yeah, I'm done here uh...
Need to really follow up with my work! Can't lag behind too much anymore already... ):
Gonna work hard for ACJC!!!
K it will end here! Bye kahhow! LOL Si stalker. Hahah