Yeah. Os is almost done. (:
AIYA think I totally screwed it up. I'm damn scared that my answers cannot sia. Especially for my sciences. Chem like can do, but after prelims 2, totally lost lots of confidence. Hope for the best. Physics was today and kinda screwed up! This paper is more difficult than past years! Hope moderate lower! A1 set at 70? Haha like that still got hope!
But both maths should get A1! If not damn disappointed sia!
English. GOD. Comprehension. Totally flunked la. Now I'm hoping I can pass really. I can't even answer stupid questions. Hope that my oral and compo can pull my marks up uh.
Left with Chinese and sciences MCQs.
K I'm determined to work for that A. I need it terribly.
Lets say el 5, em am 1 each, CL can get 2? Then another random subject of 3! Then at least can go poly finance ba. Won't make it for jc I think. And I don't have the time anymore. Gotta be working for my parents alot more this few years. :/ unless my chem and physics both can A2 huh. And EL B4. Then still can go CJC or what. HAIYA difficult la. My cousin so smart also get more than 10 la. Siannn
K back to reality. I'm just all alone. Really. No one cares about me uh. I put in effort but no one cares. Is it like I must be the one doing so much?
Am I obliged to do so? Idk. I'm confused. Really. Wonder how am I gonna spend this holiday. With my bros? Nah doubt so. I'm always left out anyway. I don't effing make any difference. Just like what is happening, u there u don't reply. Eh eff u la. Just say dont want hard is it? I'm never gonna plan anything anymore. Some ass just don't realize how hard is it to plan. I'm not gonna please anyone.
And always been joked at, nah. Not a nice feeling. Everything i say, everything I do, everything is funny.
Nah. This holiday is all about myself. Work, isolate myself. Follow my parents around, get used to everything. And go for workouts too! Haha! Today's soccer was great uh. Scored 3, oh well. All lucky goal what. Popular people who scores all damn nice. People like me score, it's like nothing much. I'm sick of this life.
K I'm done ranting, no one gonna see anyway. Hahaha! Bye!

Oh well. It's being freaking long since I last blogged. So decided to blog before I sleep with my phone. Hahaha
Nothing is going well. No revision time, so many hmwk. But it's making me learn how to manage my time better actually. Not a bad thing after all.
And got another b3 for CL. Yeah. Damn disappointed. I don't even know where went wrong actually. But decided to retake luhh. Don't know what the results will be, but I'll try my best. The first thing everyone say when they know I got B3, is that I didn't take it seriously. I guess so.
Finished my chem revision. Hahaha hope tmr's mock I'll do okay!
Then studied abit of ss. Till I fall asleep. -.-" at least I studied. :D
And amaths time practice. OMG. I'm dead la. Don't know how to do. Should really start practicing!
Err yeah should forget about everything except my studies. (: at least for now.
You're...... So I shouldn't bother u too much eh? Continue with it then. You're doing great.
And basket. Stop whatever you're doing. Thanks. Don't think you're so damn cool. Disgusting.
And you, don't so proud of yourself. Wake up too.
And you, I don't see where I'm happy about that. Don't make insignificant comments when u don't know a shit.
LOL I'm sorry to shoot so many people. But all this are really what I feel la. I'm done here. Just gotta go my own way, lead my own life. Got to move on and be who I am.
#foreveralone D;

okay! exams have kinda ended. left with physics and chem paper 1.
err... except for mt paper 1, amaths, i feel i've done quite alot uh.
emaths was disappointing, hope got A2 uh!
then later gonna practice mcqs till damn hardcore. to get my A!!
if i got 2As for science it would be brilliant man! hahah
ytd played soccer whole afternoon, exam ended at 11. shiok! but nah.. disappointing day for me.
only scored 1 in 3 games.
and the match against danish's team was damn shit for me. my crosses suck, my stamina dropped like shit, my shots, half not on target. time to go for a few runs to train up i guess.
ahhhhh!!!! just somehow feel that ytd's lost was my fault. felt so useless ytd..
dont care uh, just gonna try to keep improving myself.
gonna watch lakers third playoff against nuggets then afternoon start doing mcqs ba. (:
nothing much to say i guess. BYE :D

LOL im being stalked by people on my blog. there's this pageview thing. so many people viewed by my blog. but who cares. hahah erm yeah, havingmuscle cramps everywhere. cant really move. cant even COUGH. DAFUQ. hahaha revision has started uh! now halfway thru geog. left with 20% more to go for natural veg. done with development. starting ss again at 3pm hopefully! will blog about what's being happening the whole month. i'll post what i rmb ba. now study! blog after prelims! yong kahhow is one of the stalkers anyway. so yeah stop it. -,-"

Yes, I still love you. Still as much. That's the reason that u wanted. The one reason.
It's because of the lies and everything that caused me to feel upset, unhappy.
Wouldn't it be better if u told me sooner? Like straight in the face that it wasn't possible, tell me to forget it?
U didn't, u just continued to not say anything.
And about him, u were like, u don't like each other and even pushed him to another girl. Seriously wtf. Do u think letting me know on my own would hurt me less deeply. No, it isn't gonna help, at all. And u came asking me what was I angry about? Freak u la seriously, u could have at least told me what is happening sooner right? What give him only one word reply, lend him shirt and things like that? Tell me all this for? Make me jealous? Make me sad? And in the end, my own problem. I don't even have the rights to be angry.
Like a bastard, but yeah, you're still on my mind, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second for so long.
It's the truth, why should I lie that I've freaking forgotten about u when I've not been able to do that?
Feeling freaking frustrated, I mean, when guys do something wrong, its the guys fault. When girls do something wrong, it's also the guys fault.
C'mon, we weren't born to always please u all, can't u all somehow sometimes be more direct?maybe even tell us everything, so we won't even have high hopes?
Now looking at the things I said to u, it's stupid, but I can't help thinking at all girl.
All those things I said... When I remember it, I freaking feel like a clown. One that entertains u like a idiot when u already have someone in mind.
And lastly, about YOU, yes, another you.
It's their problem what, did u have to extra and like caused problems between them?
Like them settle it on their own la.
I really dont wanna say mean things man.. and what u are doing is just making him upset.
I'm done here la seriously. I'm feeling damn effed up.
I still love you. The end.
Bye. Gonna play soccer tmr, forget about everything, play to my heart's content, and go home and start with revision.

Woah everyone is like so emo on twitter these few days luhh...
Well, yeah including me.
But what can I do? I could just face lonely nights alone, look up the ceiling while on my bed and do nothing.
I really wished I had understanding parents, who could communicate really well with me so I could tell them all my problems..
But I can only keep everything to myself now... I don't even have the time to do my stuffs, hmwk and other things
Just finished watching man utd's match just now, great win, the last few minutes of the game were really great. Damn scary. Hahah
Then now... Yeah about to sleep Liao uh... No one to talk to also anyway..
Just a short post.. Bye. ):

Haiz... Why should I still care so much man... It's like... I really can't describe my feelings now.
It's freaking affecting me.
I failed 5 this time round. HELLO LIMBENGKENG, 5. Yes, out of 7.
I'm feeling damn disappointed. Thi will be a wake up call for me.
It's really time to forget you, but you're in the same freaking class as me. #FML
But just what can I do? Everywhere I go, people are talking about u two. Not even considering how I feel, AT ALL.
Ya great, for now I failed physics, chemistry, amaths. Will get back ss and geog, which I failed badly too. And English damn jialat also.
Hope I get a1 for emaths since its quite easy? Then Chinese get a B. PLEASE
If not my l1r5 40+ sia. Wth
I seriously have to stop all this crap, I can't carry on with this life.
And yeah no more soccer already, I mean like not gonna play everyday.
I'll change. Maybe to 2 per week.. Then slowly no more.
But when I have free time, all I think about is what happened..
What the hell can I do to forget u, seriously..
Aiya heck care la!
But I won't fail so many for prelim already.
I'll study hard, no soccer, no distractions and anything!
Yes, I said it. I'll do it. No one can stop me.
Just have to keep on motivation myself to keep on doing better than last year.
This results for term test, treat it like it never exist, cos its only gonna drag me down.
So yeah, I've yet to break the news to my mum, I have to find a way to do it. Though she will be damn disappointed.
Okay enough of all this. Actions speak louder than words, all I have to do is to improve myself now.
Then this morning woke up late, almost late but still early by a few seconds.
Then had el, damn suey, had to stand up for nothing, again. But nvm luhh...
Then had PE. Played captain ball. I damn lousy la. But don't care. I guess it's because of all that stupid comments that pulled me down.
Then after recess was Chem, took back results damn disappointing. Don't care luhh.. Can't change a thing, all I can do is study harder, get my basics right and move on.
Had science day, did chem calculations.
Then played soccer awhile before going home. Just awhile, to relieve stress. But no more! Hahaha
Then I ran home,need to start running uh! My running like CMI again! Wtf. bathe, change, and went to cwp for dinner. It's mum birthday! Ha dinner at hot tomato cos swensens was kinda crowded and packed.
Then walked awhile and went home! Didn't buy anything though!
Okay, now gonna sleep! Having a 'early' night! Hahah goodnight stalkers who are stalking me! LOL especially kahhow.
Haha BYE! (:
No matter what happens, I'll tell myself,
LIMBENGKENG, keep moving on. There will always be someone better, just that u haven't met her. The past? Nah, I have to forget it cos it wasn't meant to be.
And about studies, just move on too. I'm not exactly that stupid. I just need that little bit more concentration. (:
Cos there's friends, true friends, who will always be there for u, be it when you are down and out, or happy.
I know it, I can feel it. One of them will always be Gabriel. He's always there man! Thanks bro! Thanks to those that always helps me along this 3 years plus too. Really.
Those haters, lol it's your problem la! Things that happen also not my fault! Chey! I don't want haters also can't sia! -,- not gonna care anymore.
Okay BYE! LOL xD

Okay... I officially have a stalker. Kahhow. Lol seriously stop coming to my blog to see my posts la! Hahah
Okay, so school as usual. My grades are falling like nobody's business. I'll buck up after April. But, need to start a little now at least!
Then I'm thinking of stopping soccer for awhile too. Hahah too much distractions huh...
Went to cousins house last Saturday for buffet! The food is still damn nice luh..
Every year also have, from Stamford. Hahaha good food. Got people serve de somemore. That's why it's good to be rich. LOL
Then slept there till 2.30am like that sia! Cos dad was talking to other company de bosses... LOL guys also like auntie like that.. Can talk a lot. Hahah
Then went home and continue sleeping.. Tired uh!
Today was boring luhh, played basketball with junxiang and his friends after coming back from subway with Lionel and Daniel Yong. Like weird to be eating with them uh. But don't care.
Then some random auntie came to ask me how to write qu Xiao in pinyin. Lols
Then just helped lo hahaha
I feel that my basketball shooting improved Liao leh! Haha quite accurate and can shoot quite well too! The pattern also there! XP
No one can be the best in something, u might just be overtaken by someone who works extremely harder.
That's what I learnt today. O.o
So yeah, I'm done here uh...
Need to really follow up with my work! Can't lag behind too much anymore already... ):
Gonna work hard for ACJC!!!
K it will end here! Bye kahhow! LOL Si stalker. Hahah

kahhow like some stalker. i post only he know the next day. kay fine. i dont care. haha
well, it's been more than a week.. less affected but... still affected.
i've been trying to face it, but i just cant.
it's like... i dont wanna say it here la... only some people know exactly why i cant face it..
sian... i really dont want to give a damn already la! AHHHH!!!
okay back to my life.
today physics test is SHIT. WTF.
such a difficult paper and u say it's olevel standard? TYS THOSE QUESTIONS FAKE ONE IS IT? -.-
okay dont care. seriously im on my way to getting an f9.
have to work doubly hard for my other sunjects already!!
will study for chemistry during the two periods of elective tmr.
really aiming for a A for that!
the rest also cant be too lousy.
both maths also going for A uh! too many fails not nice!
then after test today went to the canteen to do TD gold project.
after which, me and gabriel went to play soccer with the rest.
we lost 3-1 to everlast.
i scored a consolation! but still we lost.. nvm... will look at what happened.
there's some conflict in the team now i think.. haiz.. will solve it once and for all tmr.
then was practically slacking and messaging the whole night, till now.. i think im gonna have an early night. im really tired..
and yeah, imrpoved my one lap timing by 10 seconds!
6:25
i kept stopping! it could have been 6:10!
nvm! aiming for 6 if we are still running one rounds. but if not, hope i can run below 12 mins!!! thanks to all the soccer trainings, encouragements from friends, i can run more quickly now, more stamina uh! thanks guys!
it's just one month to my birthday! but i wonder who will really remember it anyway...
dont care la, im foreveralone.
other than that, BYEBYE! nothing much to say anyway.. (:

Just gonna post before I sleep.
Err... Yeah lots of things happened this week.
But I'm gonna take it upon my stride and move on.
I'll never shed a tear for a girl anymore, for my school days at least.
All I can say is, I've no right to be unhappy. Do whatever u want, it's not my business.
Whether I will hate u two or what, it's not your problem too. (:
All those sweet talks seems stupid. Why the eff did I even do all those things?
When my dad asked me about the Christmas present I coincidently gotten from u, I really just felt like throwing it away. I mean, u should have already been out of my memories, for I know that I've never been in yours.
U dont want me to blame u two, but please, don't be so selfish. I do what I want. Dont expect too much from me. It's already good that I haven't fan lian.
For him, I might even make myself quit the soccer team, a team made up of brothers, but he destroyed ME.
It was really fun.
And there's really still lots of things to say.
But I'm seriously on the verge of breaking down.
When ms Dil talked about bgr problems, I was damn affected. But I just had to act normal and disiao kahhow, who wanted to commit suicide. LOL
But I know, I can do nothing.
Studying is my top priority.
And the text buddy I have? Nah, I don't like her. She's really just a friend to me, to help me with all these problems for now. Nothing much. After everything is over, all will be only hmwk!
So yeah, school was great.
Thank kianmeng for helping me with am! Can't disappoint him I guess? Need to do well in term test!
Been playing soccer this two weeks, almost everyday!
And there's a match tmr. But I won't play. Cos I know, with u around, I always have a dip in standard and form.
I'm just gonna sit down and look, really hoping that freeplay warriors will win.
This should just end here.. Gonna sleep.
From next week on, everything will start afresh. I won't be bothered by other things.
And anyway, npcc sec 1 have 30 people!
Gonna have fun with them after CNY!
Done. (:

it's been so long since i blogged! haha
okay school started. it's a really busy first week i had! had to stay in sch till 8! for pds! haha
okay, so npcc pds had a performance during cca bazaar. Go and watch it on youtube everyone! it's a really great performance!
it's all due to the training that we had, the cooperation with each other. (:
i really enjoyed it uh..
then had quite alot of homework also! the workload is like never-ending...
it's more than what we have for our holidays ah! haha exaggeration. but yeah i dunno how to describe la! haha
then on monday, we took out chinese olevel result. i was one of the 8 who got a B3. disappointed max. but i tried already. so im out of hmt, then i'll go for a retest on may.
hope i can get a A1. (:
then today played soccer for the first time this year! the feeling is great man! everyone is still playing well! i scored two! seem to be solo efforts but i wouldnt have done it if my teammates didn't pass the ball to me! so yeah! great teamwork! we lost 2-0, fight back and took the lead 3-2 and lost the match 5-3. D:
haha but was really fun uh!
all the express classes will be going to ACJC tmr! haha one of my dream school ah! (:
9 points.
but i also have a few other schools in my mind.
ACJC, SAJC(provided Gabriel go man!), CJC. haha i'll also be looking at a few poly courses.. err... business management or business with engineering.
but for all this dreams to happen, im gonna study real hard. (:
i'm serious man!
and Mr Lin announced that i'll be the sec 1 adjutant for 2012 together with Angela uh! hope we work well ba! (:
not gonna waste the 4 months i have.
then SPF nominees was also announced. quite disappointed not to have gotten it.. but nvm uh... just gotta think positively and move on. at least i know why i wasn't able to get it.
double disappointments this week, but at least i had a good news ba.. now i guess it's just studies.
term test will be starting soon after CNY. gonna start on geog if i dont need help with lesson plan today.
ahh... tmr will be going for a run during PE. ohgosh, im gonna fail again...
what can i do to just pass it! no time go run on my own also lo..
k luhh, hope i do well tmr... at least pass. (:
im done here!! BYE! (: